Xmas over here come 2010!

Christmas over and now I'm heading to 2010! A very new year for everyone I guess! Probably yes! A new change too.

Was BBQ-ing with my dad and brother just now. We enjoy bbq-ing and feeding the "hangus" fishball and hotdog to the hungry cat at the roadside. Christmas tree was taken down. Very tiring day today. I can't imagine that 2009 are going to the end. And 2010 is coming! And I'm 20 years old soon. I'm getting older and older. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? I guess its a good thing and also a bad thing. lol

Today I read a book called The power of positive living, and the book is really good. Its talk about the positive life that others people were living with and happy with it. I guess it's time to give a try on it.

Feeling and christmas :)

I can't stand it anymore with my attitude and myself. I'm getting off the limit and I know I need to stop it before it's to late. Recently, I scolded my parents for little tiny matter and I just don't know why I acted like that. After scolded them, I felt guilty and wrong but I don't dare to say sorry to them. It's really hard for me. And I just hate the feeling of being guilty.

And for financial I'm okay with it as I didn't spend any money when I'm in my hometown. And guess what, I'm getting fatter and my face is getting round and round like a football ball. lol I have been eating a lot when I got back to hometown. Eat then online then sleep. No jogging because everyday raining and I'm lazy to jog around my house area.

Christmas for this year is awesome, had turkey with my family, BBQ with my friends and had a lot of fun with friends. But seriously I'm getting really fat! I wanted to cut down some weight but I couldn't do it. I need someone to help me this time. force me.

Picture taken during christmas and dinners.

Thatcher,Allison Chan and me at my house for the BBQ


Group photo of my friends. I'm not in the picture as I'm taking the picture :)


Fire! Actually my dad was heating up the charcoal with the fire thingy.


Chicken wing for the cats! the chicken wing already black in colour! didn't take good care of the chicken wing. wasted 5 chicken wing!


Dinner with cousins. Me and john and ken lol.


My brother ranny and me.


Cousin brother sam and me.


Uncle Frankie and Aunty Sharon from Australia


Me and felicia.

17/12/09 Thursday

Its been almost two weeks I'm relaxing at my hometown after I terminate my job at kepong. Really relaxing here but at the same time I felt bored. Keep on doing the same things again and again that is online. Headache. :(

Just came back from lunch with thatcher, and now I'm doing the same thing again online. arghhh :( Today my mum told me that I'm fat and I get angry because she say me fat and I ask her " why you didn't say your daughter pretty?" My mum answer " If i say you pretty, others people say you fat, then you say its your mother who say you pretty, I will be really ashamed on it." But it is normal for a mother to say her own daughter pretty, its your own blood daughter! :(

But anyhow, I also need to control on the food I'm eating, not too over and not too little. LOL and I need to EXERCISE!!! I'm too lazy to exercise, but I really need to exercise =.= My instinct told me to do so, but my body ask me not to do so LOL!

Now I'm super bored, gotta find something to occupied my time! uhhhhhhh :(

Bloody Bangladesh people!

Stupid Bangla people. Steal my phone inside the KTM!

Its happen yesterday when I go inside the ktm, and there were a lot of people rushing in and pushing here and there. So, I'm busy taking care of my bag and I didn't realize my phone was stolen until I stand still at a place inside the KTM.
So I borrow a china girl phone and call my phone, and my phone actually ring, and I don't know where the sound come from as there were too many people packing inside the ktm. And I suspected fews bangla people face so dam freaking scare and sweating and hand in the pocket.

I immediately cancel my simcard so that the fucking stupid bangla won't use my simcard to call to other people and wasted my money... Stupid banglaaaaaaaaa!!! Hope he will kena langgar la once he step on the road. No money go earn by self.

Nevermind, take this as a lesson. Never ever put my phone in my pant pocket anymore!! :(

Missing my family..

I miss my family. My uncle and family went thailand for holiday. Now I'm alone at uncle house. Feel so lonely. I need my family. I miss them. :(
I want to celebrate christmas with them. I want to eat turkey with them. I just miss them :(

I'm going singapore soon. This saturday. with my manager. I feel excited but I kinda miss my family. How?? I don't want to tell my feeling to others. My friends won't understand how I feel. Some of them was too over confident telling me the things that is right when the thing is actually not perfect as they think.

talk is easy, when you do it's hard. I just don't like some people who didn't support their friend. always talk about how great they were, how good is that things, how to manage. Feddup! Stop being such idiot in front of me. I know what i'm doing.

My mood went down today. and i duno why. Mood suddenly swing.

freaking tired......

First day diett :)

Yesterday was my first day diet. This time I put more effort on my diet. I have three meals where breakfast - 1 glass of milk, Lunch - Some light food, mihon soup, and dinner - oat drinks. Workout at the gym was really really tough and now my both hand muscle pain. VERY pain! :(

I will do my best, at least slim down few kgs! Most important things - foods and exercise. Need to control my eating habits and do regular exercise. :)

Sound easy? Actually not. When you are addicted to smoking, when you wanted to stop you feel hard. Same as controlling my eating habits which I love snacks!!! :(

Not only want to reduce weight, healthy is also the purpose of going for gym. Exercise makes my body healthy. But don't over exercise! Today is my second day diet! Breakfast - a glass of milk, lunch - wantan mee, dinner i guess I'm going to drink my oat drink again :P

This times I feel good with my diet, maybe I've been motivated by my friends and my beloved family :) I will do my besttt! Suddenly felt excited! I just want to share how i feel to everyonee :) Because I feel good by sharing how i feel.

Always be positive.

It's been a while, my life was negative for the past year and now I learnt when we think positively no matter how bad is the thing we will go thru it.

Sometimes I didn't care what people think when I'm talking and people advice me not to talk like that in the public and I listen positively even though I'm a bit upset. The person who told me that is because she/he cares about me, she want me to change.

Life is really wonderful if you think positively and be a believer. Nothing is impossible, the thing is wether you want it or not. It doesn't matter how you do it, the thinking is the matter.

I used to think negatively when people advice me, I will get angry and really piss off. But now I learnt we shouldn't put our negative faith upon us, we need to change it to positive so our life will be wonderful and there will be no difficulties in life.

Sometimes people just can't resist the word I can't in their mind, take away the "t" in I can't! It easy, if you think you can, mean you can. Everything start from 0, with our own effort I believe we can do whatever things we want to achieve in life.
Recently, I have been thinking a lot about my life, I should take the first step, positive thinking. With this I would be more clam when doing something.

Many people do not believe in faith, because they doesn't have the believe in them. God is always looking us up there. He knows what we are doing and what we want, If you didn't believe in yourself, how will god help you?

life can be really wonderful people, start thinking positively now, and be a believer and change the I can't to I can. Don't be lazy to change your state of mind. :)