Addicted to blogging xD

currently I'm addicted to blogging. I also don't know why. Maybe by blogging I can improve my grammar. But still there are a lot of grammar mistake in my blog. So don't mind if I use wrong language/ grammar. No one is perfect tho :)

I have been searching information to improve my speaking language on English. So I can speak English fluently. Its important for me to start now so I can speak English fluently when I'm working. I'm going for my internship pretty soon. I'm so excited and nervous in the same time. I have a lot of things to think about in my mind. What should i act? what should i do? Many things just pop up on my mind. :(

I'm so unpredictable. I don't know what I'm going to do when there is problem occur. I don't think before I do sometime. That's so wrong. I should think before I do. Learn from mistake is the biggest thing I need to know. Sometime I feel confuse about my life. Sometime i feel that I'm very useless. I only know how to talk but I don't do it. Many people talk about me, and I feel unconformable about it. I wanted to change and I try to change. It doesn't work :(

Is that hard for me to do so? Or I'm not willing to change the way I am now? or I didn't work hard to change? All this questions always pop up in my mind and I felt really tired about it. Once my internship start, I'm going to try my best to do my best not only for myself, for my parents, friends and others people who are in need :)

" Nothing is impossible, Unless you didn't try your best "

Quote for today :)
good night people. cheers <3