Xmas over here come 2010!

Christmas over and now I'm heading to 2010! A very new year for everyone I guess! Probably yes! A new change too.

Was BBQ-ing with my dad and brother just now. We enjoy bbq-ing and feeding the "hangus" fishball and hotdog to the hungry cat at the roadside. Christmas tree was taken down. Very tiring day today. I can't imagine that 2009 are going to the end. And 2010 is coming! And I'm 20 years old soon. I'm getting older and older. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? I guess its a good thing and also a bad thing. lol

Today I read a book called The power of positive living, and the book is really good. Its talk about the positive life that others people were living with and happy with it. I guess it's time to give a try on it.

Feeling and christmas :)

I can't stand it anymore with my attitude and myself. I'm getting off the limit and I know I need to stop it before it's to late. Recently, I scolded my parents for little tiny matter and I just don't know why I acted like that. After scolded them, I felt guilty and wrong but I don't dare to say sorry to them. It's really hard for me. And I just hate the feeling of being guilty.

And for financial I'm okay with it as I didn't spend any money when I'm in my hometown. And guess what, I'm getting fatter and my face is getting round and round like a football ball. lol I have been eating a lot when I got back to hometown. Eat then online then sleep. No jogging because everyday raining and I'm lazy to jog around my house area.

Christmas for this year is awesome, had turkey with my family, BBQ with my friends and had a lot of fun with friends. But seriously I'm getting really fat! I wanted to cut down some weight but I couldn't do it. I need someone to help me this time. force me.

Picture taken during christmas and dinners.

Thatcher,Allison Chan and me at my house for the BBQ


Group photo of my friends. I'm not in the picture as I'm taking the picture :)


Fire! Actually my dad was heating up the charcoal with the fire thingy.


Chicken wing for the cats! the chicken wing already black in colour! didn't take good care of the chicken wing. wasted 5 chicken wing!


Dinner with cousins. Me and john and ken lol.


My brother ranny and me.


Cousin brother sam and me.


Uncle Frankie and Aunty Sharon from Australia


Me and felicia.

17/12/09 Thursday

Its been almost two weeks I'm relaxing at my hometown after I terminate my job at kepong. Really relaxing here but at the same time I felt bored. Keep on doing the same things again and again that is online. Headache. :(

Just came back from lunch with thatcher, and now I'm doing the same thing again online. arghhh :( Today my mum told me that I'm fat and I get angry because she say me fat and I ask her " why you didn't say your daughter pretty?" My mum answer " If i say you pretty, others people say you fat, then you say its your mother who say you pretty, I will be really ashamed on it." But it is normal for a mother to say her own daughter pretty, its your own blood daughter! :(

But anyhow, I also need to control on the food I'm eating, not too over and not too little. LOL and I need to EXERCISE!!! I'm too lazy to exercise, but I really need to exercise =.= My instinct told me to do so, but my body ask me not to do so LOL!

Now I'm super bored, gotta find something to occupied my time! uhhhhhhh :(