I just want to say sorry to my friends.

I just want to say sorry to my friends. I know I have been kinda bossy toward them and I know myself. I felt they are very far from me even though they are just right infront of me. We have no topic to talk anymore. Maybe because they don't like to talk to me? or they get boring talking with me? or i think too much? I really wanna say sorry to them and I will change. Everytime i say i want to change , I can't do it.

How?? who can teach me how to change? nobody. Every thing need to be done by myself. I remain silent,they say I emo, I talk a lot they will show me the face that I think they Don't like. Sometime I really think of giving up this friendship but I just can't. I need them, I take them as my real friends. I know my attitude is very very very bad and its become my habit. Not only they say about my attitude, even my family members and cousin will say about it. I just don't care when ever they tell me how bad is my attitude. What wen sze say is correct, everyone have its own limit. Not every can do what ever u ask them to do and I do understand.

I believe that, if i really change, i would be better, and i won't think of negative perception, and I will not feel down everytime i talk with my friends. I really wanna change. I know it bad, i want to change.

I felt sad, I need some one tat really care to listen what i'm thinking. I'm SORRY friends. I care every advice you guys give me. I really appreciate it. thanks for being my friends.