Sunday!

Ah, sunday.... tomorrow monday..college again. I don't like the feeling. but what to do.. haha after yesterday incident, i found out that true friends is hard to find even though you believe them so much, at last they will talk bad bout you behind. I used to talk bad bout people last time, but now its getting boring and I changed.
Maybe they don't know, but i don't care. I still have others friends. They care about me, they advice me.

okay okay.. forget about the thing. Today at last i finish my feature writing about my grandpa!! Today totally a boring sunday! no money to go out! no food to eat... Listening to the same song repeat and repeat again.. so bored. Facebook-ing the whole day! :(

thanks

Special thanks to my parents and my friends who support me. no matter what... I told everything to my parents and they ask me not to think about it anymore. But yeah i do feel sad because of what my friend did to me.. i did talk bad bout other ppl but that was me last time.. Now i've changed. I admit last time i was totally a bitch.. but I changed. I get my lesson.. Maybe they think i did not change. I did..
only my close friends know me well and my parents. thanks <3

12 years friendship

I can't believe what my 12 years friends just did to me. Why they want to betray me like that? Say something that is not real to another friend...
If they wan to play, play it safe, why do they need to play until that serious? it really hurting me. and I'm really disappointed on them.
When ever they need help, I'm there to help. but this is what i get from them? I don't mind they tease me ... but telling this kind of thing to another friends really making me sad and disappointed on it... Where are the friends that i knew last few years? After they came college , they seemed to change to another person. Why? I really stupid. Stupid until give them another chance and now I guess its over!
12 years friendship....I can't believe anyone anymore. Everyone is telling lies... When i treat them good, i get the bad one. Why i so stupid?? I don't know what I'm going to do... thatcher ask me to be myself, but I care about the 12 years friendship... but in other way, it really hurt me. I should just forget about it .. but it take time. No one understand me.. when i'm sad i need someone to talk to.. but there is no one.. I wanted to tell my parent, but i scare they worry about me. I don't want them to worry about me.

I guess its over.......................... .. . .. ..... ... .. .. ..

Tired day!

Today super duper tired! lols...
woke up at 1.45pm today! Justin msg me ask me to go college to finish up our assignment and lastly we manage to finish and pass it up! Yuhoo!! two assignment already pass up! Now only got feature writing assignment which I have already done half way! Its about my grandpa story.
Furthermore, me and my cousin,iko decide to clean the room where we did not clean it for about 1 month!! hahaha so dirty right?? We used 1 hour plus to finish our cleaning and guess what picture below is the dirt and hair that we sweep!!



Now my room is super super clean!! I feel more comfortable and fresh! yeah... got mood to do assignment already lol :)

Besides that, I don't know why I'm still worrying about the internship next sem. Maybe I'm not ready yet. I guess it is too early for us to go for internship. We learned nothing yet! arghh... headache when i think about it.. transport? what company? T.T

Going yamcha with housemate later..murni! lols after doing so many thing for today! Must relax a while :P

Good night everyone.

I just want to say sorry to my friends.

I just want to say sorry to my friends. I know I have been kinda bossy toward them and I know myself. I felt they are very far from me even though they are just right infront of me. We have no topic to talk anymore. Maybe because they don't like to talk to me? or they get boring talking with me? or i think too much? I really wanna say sorry to them and I will change. Everytime i say i want to change , I can't do it.

How?? who can teach me how to change? nobody. Every thing need to be done by myself. I remain silent,they say I emo, I talk a lot they will show me the face that I think they Don't like. Sometime I really think of giving up this friendship but I just can't. I need them, I take them as my real friends. I know my attitude is very very very bad and its become my habit. Not only they say about my attitude, even my family members and cousin will say about it. I just don't care when ever they tell me how bad is my attitude. What wen sze say is correct, everyone have its own limit. Not every can do what ever u ask them to do and I do understand.

I believe that, if i really change, i would be better, and i won't think of negative perception, and I will not feel down everytime i talk with my friends. I really wanna change. I know it bad, i want to change.

I felt sad, I need some one tat really care to listen what i'm thinking. I'm SORRY friends. I care every advice you guys give me. I really appreciate it. thanks for being my friends.

Tv production practical test !

Tomorrow I'm going to have my tv production practical test. I'm so scare! Need to set up the camera oh my god...I scare I will do some mistake... God bless me! =((
Hope I can do well on my practical test!! =/
Today me and my cousin, iko just bought our newly bikini, konon going sunway lagoon next week with iko frens! I don't have a nice body to wear but haha i buy just to wear it with a white shirt so that it look more nice....
Suddenly, I feel like I'm trying so hard, but yet I'm so far from what i wan. Maybe I really never try that hard to achieve the goal that I wanted to.
Why everytime i talk to my friend, I feel I'm so useless and so low self-esteem. Maybe i should think more positive.
I will try, and try, even though i fall down, I will stand up and walk again and finish the marathon of my life! No matter what happen, I still have my friends and family support. I really appreciate on what my friends advice me, how my parents help me when I need them. <3

I gonna catch up the TVB movie!! The new movie " Great way to care " !!
Very "kan chiong" already the movie! Waiting for the movie to be upload then gona download it! Niway, Nites! <3

Laziness!

This few days I'm so lazy to update my blog. Its been a while writing blog! I have no interest in writing blog but I want to express my feeling. LOL Maybe i'm not into writing blog but I will try to update whenever I feel I want to update it. Plus the internet is slow I cant upload any pic.

But never mind. Today I just got back from my hometown! Me and housemate went to yuen steamboat for dinner. We ate a lot there until my stomach feel like going to explode! and yeah I went toilet for three times! All the food gone lols..

Thatcher Mihon! the bowl full of mihon lol.




Thatcher syok-ness face



Fiona



Iko syok-ness face! omg she eat a lot!



Lastly of coz myself...Too full to describe my feeling! LOL =p