Believe.

Its been a while I've acted this way. My friends were telling me how I actually acted and they don't really like it. I was really upset, the group project problem, my attitude problem. I'm so depress on that day. I was thinking to just quit my study.

Spend three days with my uncle and cousin, we went a lot of places, and actually it's quite fun and I actually forget everything that make me sad. And went to church today, and I told my dad how i feel, and I won't gave up just like that. I will change, I'm 20 this year, If I'm still the same as the past, I'm a really useless person, I felt sorry for myself, why I acted like that? friends are telling me because they want me to change, They told me twice and I did the same attitude again, They did not give up on telling me how i acted and I appreciate how they treated me as friends. Thank you very much.

Study, Much more I will do my best, I told my dad I won't give up on my study, My dad told me, you so hard get to this stage, and you want to give up just like that? And he told me that he will pray for me, pray for me to stay stronger, think positively, and I must know that our lord, jesus christ, is always there for me. He is watching and listening to my prayer. Every night I pray for forgiveness that I have done.

What was past was past. Why not start a new chapter of life rather stick to the past? Is worth to do so, Meanwhile I can improve my relationship with my friends and family. I admit my attitude is the biggest mistake I have done, I'm bossy, easily angry and straight forward. Its may hurt many people feeling and I understand that.

I'm glad that I have a family that support me and motivate me to do something, they don't scold me when I'm wrong, they will help me in solving it. But previously i acted like a fool. I used to scold them, like I'm the princess of the house. When I think back, I feel I'm really bad.. really really bad. I'm sorry dad and mum.

SO! I have decided to move on with a new chapter in my life! :D
About assignment and project, I will work hard for that, don't know something just ask lecturer! why need to be shy? I used to be shy to ask lecturer a question because I scare people will laugh at me, Stupid right? so, Now I'm not afraid to ask. I'm still learning so do others. We have a lot of things to be learn in the society!

I'm so gonna shop for CNY! :)
So good night :D